In 2010 I left my alcoholic husband. I had been a functional alcoholic myself up to that point. For a while I was able to maintain a façade while meeting my own needs and those of my child. I began self-medicating, using vodka as the answer to my life’s problems. Soon I could no longer control my drinking and blackouts started. I had been a successful hairdresser but ended up losing my clientele due to my drinking. Within a year, I got two DUIs, lost custody of my son, and my ex-husband passed away due to this disease. Things snowballed in just a very short amount of time.
I went to a residential substance abuse facility. I had just finished the required MADD class, the last step in my DUI program and had paid all my fines. I wanted to celebrate, so with no fear at all, I bought some alcohol! The treatment facility kicked me out and my parents let me come back home. Depressed, I couldn’t get out of bed. I was still drinking and decided to try an outpatient program and start working again, but I couldn’t stay sober any length of time.
I found House of Hope through an internet search. I saw the pictures, it looked inviting. I had an interview and was put on a waiting list. I was told to call every day, but because I didn’t do this, I had to come back for another interview. This time I was told I could start the next day. My bags were already packed! I was really excited to come. I was also very scared but I didn’t want to go anywhere else.
I’m astonished at how much healing has happened while I’ve been here. House of Hope didn’t just put a Band-Aid on me.
My future ambitions for work and regaining custody of my son feel like they are within reach. These goals looked so far away when I got here. Family night has helped me immensely. Watching my sober sisters’ reunite with their families encouraged me to invite my own. My relationship with my family has become more trusting and open through the nurturing guidance of the staff.
I am now in the new House of Hope outpatient program and am transitioning to sober living. I see how important a 90-day residential program is. The program structure is set up for success and has definitely improved my self-esteem.
I feel God directed me here and I am eternally grateful for all of the incredible blessings that House of Hope has given me. I feel like I am ready to re-enter the real world.